Tuesday, January 6, 2009

My Challenge

I truly do believe that the lord doesn't give us anything that we can't handle. Take being a mommy for instance. There are days I truly wonder why me, why, why, why!!! My oldest seems to give me the most fits and the biggest problem is I have this "I AM THE PARENT" mentality and we are both STUBBORN so this makes for tug of wars quite frequently. I have two speeds calm and rage there is no in between and that is not good. I don't know ( or haven't learned yet) the art of talking quiet. I have always been LOUD and have of the time my kids tune me out. Arrghhhhhhhh!!! Most days I feel like crawling under a rock and never coming out. I just need to get on my knees and pray more often and read my scriptures. Their is a scripture in Doctrine & Covenants Section 122 verse 7. I really love this one because it talks about, "that all these things shall give thee experience and shall be for thy good". So being a mother comes with many challenges and heartache but it is what we choose to get out of it that makes us a better person. I think my oldest was sent to me from Heavenly Father to teach me patience and right now I am receiving a failing grade. Lets just hope that I figure this out soon so that I am not so stressed out each day. I am thankful for my calling as a wife and a mother and I wouldn't trade it for anything even with all the curve balls thrown my way. It ultimately depends on how I react to each one.

Friday, October 17, 2008

My gifts from God

Over the past couple of months my family and I have been seeing a counselor. Mainly to make sure that we are working on being good parents and help us with the challenges of raising three small kids. Being a parent is not easy and there are days I want to pull my hair out, crawl under a rock and hide and lock myself in my room to get away. But lately I have been working on not yelling so much and I was doing good and then there was a week when we did.t get to go to counseling and I backslide in a major way the yelling or screaming as it really is was horrible!!! My children deserve to be treated better and so that is another reason for getting help. It has made me realize my precious gifts from God. I have been entrusted with their care I have a great responsibility to do the best I can to rear them in righteousness, to be kind, gentle, meek, etc.... Last night I had the opportunity to read my scriptures and the scripture I came across was to search diligently these scriptures. I know in my heart if I continue to work on my spirituality that it will be easier to be the mother I know I can be. I love my little ones and am so thankful the Father in Heaven found me worthy to have them, now it is up to me everyday to realize that and be kind and remember to think before I speak.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

No patience

I really do love my children but they frustrate me to no end especially the oldest. He drives me nuts which I tell him quite frequently and his reply is "I don't make nuts", this kid always has something to say and always wants questions answered at the most in opportune times. My husband says he gets his talking so much from me Hmmm do I annoy myself or anyone else I really hope not. My patience level is non existent and when I mean non existent that is what I mean we are (more like me a def con -500). My lovely children I think were sent here to try my patience and to see how I would react and you know what I react and how do I react by yelling and yelling and more yelling. The whole neighborhood probably wonders what the heck is going on at my house. Well let's see a almost 4yr old who talks to much, a 2yr old that WHINES about everything and a 7 month old who really just wants to eat alot. The poor kid gets picked on quite frequently by Jared and Jared #2 as I call her. Taylor is a little DRAMA queen can someone please get this girl a crown!!! Seriously though Sundays at church are a nightmare, she screams and cries and carry's on about not wanting to go to Nursery class I don't put up with her crap I drop her off I leave. Jared also is having trouble going to Primary, kicking and crying and I don't stand for it I pick him up put him on his chair and head for the door while he is chasing after me. Hello kids the umbilical cords were cut along time ago, Calgon take me away, PLEASE!!!!!!! Maybe to a deserted island yeah that would be great.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

So the last couple of days have been challenging and I have really tried to remember they are just kids and I need to realize that every day. The yelling came back full force today more like screaming at the top of my lungs. I get so frustrated when I am sitting nursing the baby and Jared pesters his sister to death. All I want is when I call one of my children by there name I expect them to respond but maybe I am asking way to much. They say it takes 21 days to break a habit and I guess I am back to square one. Only 21 days to go to break the yelling habit, we'll have to see how it goes.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Day 1

Yesterday I decided to take the TV out of the kids playroom and make a new rule for myself. I can only watch TV when I am nursing the baby. I have been allowing them to watch way too much!!!!! It is not easy caring for three children all under the age of 3. So I would almost let the TV be the babysitter and I want them to read more books. Jared and Taylor played so well with each other. I even seemed less stressed and not to much yelling yesterday and Jared was actually listening after I had to put him in his room for time out. I also got them to help me clean up there playroom and that was a momentous occasion. We will see what surprises today brings as I am sure there will be alot.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Parenting is not easy

I love my three children dearly and have decided to blog about how hard it is to be a parent and a good one at that. I am a yeller, screamer, etc..... and I came to the realization that what I am doing is not working. Time to change my game plan and be more positive. I don't want my children to grow up and look back and have memories of all that mommy did was yell at me. The first thing I am going to do is to institute some rules of the house and see how it goes. My hope by doing this it will keep me motivated to strive to be a better individual, wife, parent and friend. I have read a good book in the past and I think it is time to re-read it. The title is "DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF... and it's all small stuff" by Richard Carlson, PH.D. simple ways to keep the little things from taking over your life. I worry about to many things my children are doing bad and don't take the time to focus on the good. Today is the start of Parenting 101.